Prompt for August: Describe an unexpected moment, activity, sighting, or conversation that touched you during July.
When I decided to participate in the Week in the Life project, I did not expect much to come of it other than seven days of blog posts, a good number of pictures, and some sort of scrapbook project. In the thick of it – taking hundreds of pictures, writing blog posts, mentally keeping track of what I was doing – I did not see myself and what I did, day in and day out.
For the most part, I am always thinking about how I don’t accomplish what I want to get done. I keep a huge task list of things I want to do: teach myself HTML to revamp my blog, meet up with friends, take the time to understand bread and make loaves from scratch, go to local fairs and craft shows and expos and events, make scrapbooks, paint the rooms in my home, craft something. Not to mention acting as Kate’s primary caretaker, managing all our household affairs, leading my mom’s club, working a more than part-time job, and dealing with whatever comes up.
I feel I never get anywhere. Or I go backwards. It always seems like two steps forward, one step back. It’s this dance I do, trying to map out my various projects knowing I can only work on them in bits and pieces here and there in fits and starts. Twenty minutes here. Five minutes there. Ten minutes here. Thirty minutes there. Hardly enough to accomplish anything within a given uninterrupted period of time.
Anyway, I get down on myself, wishing I could puzzle my schedule together in such a way to do all that I want.
So when I looked over my days in my Week in the Life project, it showed in – in black and white – all that I do accomplish within a week. (Here is Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday, Friday, Saturday, and Sunday.)
I do a lot. And I am busier now than I ever was when I worked at a traditional job full time. Reading back through my posts, I see just how much I manage to accomplish, and there is pretty much no way I could do more. Absolutely no way I could do more than I already do. How incredibly relieving!
Nothing in my world is life or death. And I need to make tough choices everyday on how I spend my time, keeping in mind my main priorities are raising a healthy, happy little girl and being a source of support to my family. They are my most important items on any list.