Joy should be easy, right?

But what if you feel guilty about living in joy?

Or if you’re always waiting for the other shoe to drop?

Maybe you don’t feel deserving of joy.

I feel all those things – guilt, worry, undeserving of a joyous life.  Why?  I don’t really know.  Maybe it’s because I’m a Virgo.  Or perhaps because I’m a firstborn.  A Type A perfectionist who refuses to celebrate anything less than over 100% success.

But I’ve noticed a curious pattern.  The more I work to create perfection, the less joy I feel.  Perfection robs me of joy, leaving me feeling unworthy of a happy life.

In the end, I’d rather be joyful than flawless.  Live in delight, not worry and anxiety.  Happy instead of continuously working towards the phantom that is a perfection.